So I'll have to admit that August hasn't been the best month. It's just been pretty stressful for different reasons. My sister watched Joselyn this summer and it was so nice to drop her off and know that she is having fun with her cousins. Today I left Joselyn with a new babysitter. I know she'll be taken care of but it's still hard. Needless to say it's been a hard morning filled with lots of tears.

Just when I'm feeling sorry for myself I think about others who have had it harder than I. Earlier in the month I had a cousin who was killed in a car accident which is always an unexpected thing. A couple of weeks ago, a co-worker's mother-in-law passed away. I got to work this morning and read an email that one of the pilots from my work was in a plane crash killing all 10 on board. He left behind a wife and 4 kids. I checked a friend's blog and a friend of her's was in a plane accident and she is now in a chemically induced coma and suffering from bad burns.

It makes you wonder if the end is near. It's a bit scary. It makes me want to run and hide. It makes me very grateful for my family and my religion which gives me faith and hope. Life is so hard sometimes. At times I wish that I were a mountain woman who didn't have to communicate to anyone except the animals and my family. (Can you picture me in clothes made from bear hide and walking around talking to the birds?)

All of this makes me realize that I have so much to work on. I've tried to become a better person and really set my standards high but it is so hard at times. I guess that's part of living on this earth and realizing that we aren't perfect but we have the opportunity to grow and become better. It's hard to ask for help and to really let yourself be directed by the Lord and trust in Him.

Anyway...that's how my day is going.